Bondage

I've been learning a bit about bondage/freedom lately.

The first time it hit me was when i was watching a revival chat with Steve DeSilva. I asked, "Where's the line between giving generously and being in debt?" And he simply answered, "It just depends on how much bondage you want to be in".

Bondage is something that restricts your freedom, in this case, my ability to give.

God's been opening my eyes to see other places of bondage in my own life. I used to play games a lot, like 4+ hours a day. I quit for a while, and then a few nights ago, i downloaded a game to try it out. I knew what i was walking into, i'd seen myself do it before. But anyway, i played it for like 12 hours in a span of 2 days, and then I came to myself, and then i deleted it. I realized the bondage I put myself in, and i had to be quick to cut it.

It bound my time, and i wanted out. Another lighter one, but bondage nonetheless... My videos. I was spending a lot of time on them and i kept checking back again and again just to see if anyone had commented/watched it. I was spending hours just looking at statistics doing really tedious stuff that was/is very unnecessary. I realized this morning, and I cut it off. I already feel more free just declaring it and establishing that.

Bondage is almost like addiction... but thank Jesus for breaking chains! woot! I feel amazing!

Seeing myself grow

it's pretty crazy.

at this point, I can see that i have more than i had just a few weeks ago. I'm thinking back to school of worship, and my cry was to have more. And now, I can see it.

God totally increased revelation in my life, it is normal to get a life-changing revelation... all the time.

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"There is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in." - Leonard Cohen

I just read that off my friend's quotes on FB. They smoke and they know it's bad, but they really want to quit.

A nation can be saved in one day. And a son that is willing to rise up and be himself is all that we need to see people multiplied in the kingdom.
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There is a huge increase of His presence, I just notice it now. I remember Bill talking about worship, how it's really about those times we have to recognize when we need to just stop and worship. I've been having those more and more, where God interjects randomly during the day, and i just stop. and gaze.

More!

listening to ALIVE - Ian McIntosh. Amazing album.

What has been put inside of me...

so i randomly signed up to work at this camp called camp wa-sta-hi (stands for water/stars/hills. It was so random i found it on facebook marketplace. It coincided with JesusCulture, but for some reason, I had a much stronger desire to go to this camp instead. I ended up applying, got an interview, which was totally God too, and then this past week i went to camp.

The people there are amazing, the counselors are fun, and fully involved with this camp madness. Singing songs, doing the skits...They seem like the most normal counselors, like people that I could really relate to.


We got back this afternoon, and i just got back from a "BBQ" with the counselors (about 10 total). They're all really young, from 18 to 27, so i was among the youngest. When i get there, they're all already drinking and just anything you'd expect to see at a college frat party. Their jokes are off the wall.. they're funny, just not the kind of humor i'd actually enjoy. Literally, i was the only one there that was straight up "i don't drink", it was cool, cause there wasn't really a stigma attached to it. I liked how they were completely ok, they had built relationship with me for a week prior, so the fact that i didn't live out the same lifestyle they did, didn't affect our relationship (this is foreign to the western church).

I spent almost a good 4 hours with a bunch of drunks playing booze games, taking shots of tequila and rum with their limes. I didn't really join in, because i think beer tastes like crap.... but it was interesting to watch them. While i was driving home, i recollected on the week. God's really been opening my eyes to see His heart for people. During the week at camp, He told me, "I can't wait to show them how good I Am". I knew that wouldn't happen unless i stewarded the heaven that He had given me. all throughout the week i watched opportunity pass me by and by. There were so many chances for me to invade the impossible, yet my feet stood. I ended up operating covertly, release the presence where i went, making lanyards as gifts of favor on their lives.

I operated covertly, and i can say it was good, but it wasn't best. As i was driving home, I felt His heart for His family. He longs soooo much for them. Even at the bbq, one of the guys does tarot card readings, and when he said, "who wants a tarot reading?" most of them would say me! me! My citizenship in heaven arose in me, and I started thinking, 'dude i could totally blast them away and throttle them towards their destinies with just a prophetic word. Those tarot cards got nothing.' These people are hungry for the supernatural, they want something genuine, they hate the religious, they don't want words, they want to know who they are. Only people who know they are, have the ability to show other people who they are. If you don't know who you are, you have no right to tell people who they are... because you have no understanding of your own identity, how can you point someone elses to theirs?

I've found my identity, the realm of possibility has exploded in me, what have i done to steward it?

In my car, I decided that today, I am no longer the same. I can no longer afford to not be myself. The "myself" that is in me is a monstrous man of God who is as bold as a lion, and walks in earthquaking power. That man hears the voice, that man has all the faith in the world, that man is alive, that man is a lover, that man knows his Father, that man knows Love, and that man receives and gives Love. That man can only be hindered by me. And that man has the power to use me, instead of me using that man. That man has the power of 'me-control' and can let 'myself' be 'myself' without 'me' stopping that man.

I have lost total confidence in 'me', and have moved all of that confidence in who He says I am. Because He is faithful, true. He is full of faith, and He is Truth. He is my Father, and I am His son. I am His, He is mine.

I can't afford to be 'me'. 'Me' can't give the world an encounter with Jesus. Only if I be myself will the light of Christ shine like a lighthouse, piercing miles... through the night clouds of the sea.

Jesus!

Prophecying..

a note:
i'm writing this in hopes someone may read it. although, at the same time, my main purpose is to remind myself of what He's done, and have a record of what He's taught me.

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Just read a chunk on Ultimate Treasure Hunt about the 12 year old.

"... so i figured since i was doing God's work, whatever thought came into my head was head was from God. So, when you asked if I had anything, I just said whatever first came to my mind."

To me, there's a huge revelation... this kid actually had faith. Not to say that the older BSSM students didn't. Someone said along the lines of ... most of your issues in life are trust issues. This 12 year old had a simple and profound trust in the Father, and it led to such great encouragement/fruit. It's an invitation to believe that ...He's THAT good. He's THAT faithful. He really is THAT good. Can you believe it?

Can i believe it? gonna it on this for a while.
Holy Spirit, please remind me about this word more often. It'll change my life!

School of Worship

so. i'll just ramble. cause i'm not really good at organizing my thoughts... hence the point of a blog.

comment on the last post. i've been getting more dreams... you seriously get more and remember them better when you steward them better. Since school of worship i've been getting more, and i've been waking up and typing them out on my beautiful laptop (thanks, Goh). i love this thing. anyhoo, i've had some really interesting dreams like what joseph had. Kris was talking about favor this past month. Joseph had favor with God, but he didn't have favor with people, that's why his parents and brothers were offended. So after i had these dreams i didn't and still haven't told anyone. I don't want people to be offended at what kind of dreams i'm having. I'd rather wait for God to promote me and allow for the favor of man to come in because i have favor with Him.

anyway, so i'm thinking about all this, and then the last day of class, we sang prophetically over each other in voice class. i was recording on my camera everyone singing over each other, and then when someone was about to sing over me, i handed my camera to the guy next to me so he could record. turns out, he didn't record it, but i told him not to worry about it. in the end, he confesses what he did to everyone cause he felt really bad, and then he just gave me prophetic word to make up for it. an then a girl across from me starts giving me word to, and then she says I'm a joseph. and that's it, and it wrecked me...

i think the second sunday we were there was one of the most amazing days ever. we were at firestarters and we got to give words to each other, and it was really encouraging to bless our coach, and it was also good to know that my word was accurate. near the end of the class, i started giving a word to a girl from Tim's table, and she got wacked. after class when we were waiting at hebrews, there was a guy just standing there with his son in a stroller. he had some arthritic condition. i offered to pray for his son, and then gave him a word about a new season of peace and joy. and then he told me his wife's name is joy!

yea way too many things to talk about... sooo many priceless, undescribable moments. i'm glad i captured many of them on video. God give me grace to finish editing them and posting them. need supernatural upload speed!

i think the biggest thing i took from the past month that i'm very intent to walk out is carrying his presence. i was telling jenn this today... but just realizing that I am an open heaven, and that I am the holiest place on this earth (i'm a temple of the HOLY spirit), and that heaven is home. worshiping bigger than the room...

God thank that i have the grace to walk in everything you have called me to walk in.
Thank you that my spirit man receives more than my mind.

Thanks for being an awesome friend. I'd like to hang out more, if you don't mind. You can invade my day anytime, i give you complete freedom to do whatever you want in my life. You can ask me to do anything, cause i want to be in a place where i have purpose and direction and live out my worship.

You're so good...good-er than i can imagine. show me more!

In Redding

So i dream ... the gist is that i was at SJCAC, i was about to leave (it's at night, heading back to my car, far corner away from the sanctuary). I just past the curb, and then Bill says "wait! I have something for you". in short, he gives me some papers, an item i don't know (i know what looks like though), and a book/cd. I say, "it's such an honor", we shake hands and then he leaves.

I knew that what he gave me was something he treasured in his heart, so it really was an honor to receive.. whatever he gave me. Another interesting thing, was that this was after the first of school of worship... AAANnnnd when i wrote down in my journal, i realized it was the last page. transition? new season? i think so.

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i was thinking about what Bill might be thinking about it (just wondering..). and then i perceived that bill was saying "i'm giving this to you". it seems like every he does is out of giving. Giving not so much to man, because it's not about us, bill's just giving to God, then came the phrase, "one given to God, is a blessing to man". Bill is just a giver, but he's not trying to give to man, he just gives himself to God, and it automatically makes him a blessing to man. good word Holy Spirit!

Revival Alliance I

It was such an honor to be invited to the leaders meeting before the actual meetings started. To be around such wonderful people, Heidi, Randy, Georgian, Che, and Bill... what an honor!

Georgian talked about sacrificial love. At one point, we need to start believing that it is really Christ in me, the hope of glory, and at the same time, Christ in you, the hope of glory. To release an agape love over our brothers and sisters we need to be able to see the Christ in people; willing to die for them, because they are willing to do the same for us. Heidi touched on this, she said she was willing to die for every one of us in the room, and that screwed me up... There's a dimension of this love that is SOOO radical... I was and am completely willing to give my life for one of the leaders, because they have given so much to me, but my logic couldn't make sense of it when Heidi said that she would be willing to die for me because of the love in her.

Heidi's original vision was to create a net (network) that would be able to support all the fish (harvest, new revivalists) that are going to be coming into the kingdom soon. She said that we should be carrying so much of Him that people would be running to Him, like carrying fresh bread (word) and wine (spirit), people will run to you to be fed.

Che was talking about the Lord's prayer, how we often extend it to deliverance and healing, and said it was about time to bring it to another level. There's no racism, abortion, systemic poverty, or homeless people in heaven; it's time to declare social change in the context of heaven on earth.

Bill talked about the perfect structure of romance and how the fathers in the earlier part of the century failed to pass on vision, anointing, and power to the next generation. Randy talked about how A.A. Allen had a great anointing, but he got scared and nervous when his sons began to succeed and people began to divert their attention to them instead of him. Because of the lack of honor, where powerful people empower each other instead of shutting each other down, the anointing on his life died with him, much like many of the past revivalists in the 1900s.

And then he talked about how honor releases life. Honor your father and mother... and you will have long life. Honor releases LIFE.

That was just the leaders meeting. Gotta chew on some words. I didn't even talk about easter weekend with Georgian, and John Crowder...

God...more! and help me see what I already have!

Unlovable

So a friend told me about how she was loved when she thought she was "unlovable".

I started thinking...

the point of it all is to remove that word from our vocabulary, no one is too far from love, nothing can separate love, love never fails.

'unlovable' is an old man word. In the eyes of God, YOU are always lovable, so we gotta learn to see as He sees.

"I can't afford to have a thought in my head that is not in the heart of God" - Bill Johnson

You are always lovely, always lovable, always loved, always the be-loved.

People are just one encounter away from Jesus. YOU are the answer.

Kim's InterVarsity App.. thing...

John 15:1-8

Define fruit as Jesus is using it.
-you can eat fruit, good or bad
-fruit is meant to hold seed, which are sown to produce more vines/branches/fruit
-He says He is the TRUE vine, which means there are false vines, and that fruitfulness and abundance comes from the foundation of truth (Jesus, truth/way/life)

What is the process of bearing fruit?
-bearing fruiting comes from abiding solely in Him, continually fueled by the King's faith hope and love. When we abide in Him, we find life and growth because He is more than enough, always abundant, never lacking.
-There is no mention of middleground, "he who abides... bears much fruit" Fruit is the effect of the cause of abiding; intimacy.
-The fruit of intimacy is the proof of our time spent with Him; you can't prevent fruit from coming, nor can you fake it.

What is the pruning represent?
http://www.garden.com/ArticleDetail.aspx?id=71 <-- lots of revelation here...
-Represents the working of the Holy Spirit in our life
-renewing our mind from old mentalities to kingdom mentalities, the crucifixion of the dead man, the removal of supports so we strive to grow more areas.
-used to balance the tree if the roots are not growing as fast. That is why when we are ground in Him (the rock/cornerstone/foundation), we can bear much fruit!

Make a list that describes the relationship b/w vine and branches, as they relate to Jesus and us (disciples)
physically connected:
-both have the same substances flowing through them (love, power, authority, peace, joy, hope, faithfulness, righteousness, gentleness, patience, kindness, goodness)
-The vine is always there, it cannot be moved
-The connection is the branch's choice


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1 Tim 3:1-13, 1 Peter 5:2-5
What are the key characteristics that scripture asks for in leader? Why do you think that these are important?
1 Tim:
-husband of 1 wife, blameless, respectable, not given to drunkeness, able to teach, gentle, can't be bought.
-This means they understand the value a covenant, if they know how to honor the highest covenant with someone on earth, it shows they know how to honor their covenant with God. They must be known as one of integrity, someone who stays true to their word, and able to live out their convictions. They must function with a revelation of God's grace and love, sold out and not for sale for the gospel of the Kingdom.
-In addition, they should be able to teach and impart these things so that they can raise up leaders who walk in excellence and eventually surpass them. This is essential to expand the endless boundaries of His Kingdom, and to raise up lovers who understand a covenant relationship, not just workers for a day's pay.

1 Peter:
-shepherd the flock among you, provide oversight out of a willing heart, a living role model, and honor/submit to authorities.
-This means that regardless of your position, there is always a group you can be a shepherd to, where you can provide oversight-- ability to see strategically and give sound wisdom. It is a willing heart because this person must be abiding in Him (john 15) because He is always willing.
-They understand that being faithful where God has called them will lead to an eternal reward. In submission and giving honor to authorities, God will honor you in your desires.

MMMmm..

Crazy. crazy. crazy.

I've been chewing on what Bill Johnson said/says....

"Any revelation that does not bring us into greater encounter only trains us to be more religious".

I've heard him say it before, but a few weeks ago, i heard it again and then it hit me like ton of bricks. I had to stop listening to the sermon because i was scared to go on. I hate religion. And i immediately realized that from that point, i was bound to every new revelation that God gave me. The point of greater revelation is to lead us into greater encounter and to live with a greater anointing of His spirit. I anything becomes just head knowledge, i am closer to becoming the very thing i don't want to become, religious.

For a while, i was almost scared to listen to another sermon or another new book, i knew I was bound to whatever was opened to my eyes.

I can't say much more, because i still don't have much to say. Another chapter of my life is unfolding now.

oof! biiig stuff. Yay God. =D.

Thanksgiving

1 Thess 5:18 "in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you"

-it doesn't talk about giving thanks FOR things, but rather IN things. although giving thanks for receiving is good, many times we neglect to give thanks in all things.
-everything is... everything. Good times, badtimes, in doubt, in faith, in death, in life, in growth...why? it's it will of God.
-the will of God in your life, is to know Him, it is the will God to for ALL His children to know Him. it is through, in this case, thanksgiving that others may see the Father's heart
-thanksgiving is bringing heaven on earth, everything that happens in heaven is to glorify God, thanking, praising all around His throne. A good reason why God calls us to 'enter His gates with thanksgiving' is to prepare us for heaven, which is praising God, all while letting heaven invade earth.

Mangs, God has taught me so much about thanksgiving this month, unparalleled. Thanksgiving brings victory, it is expressed faith, and cultivates faith. Thanksgiving is the mark of one who recognizes what they have been given, which should be every believer...

-brandon.

Make it your own

So one time, my friend was asking me about my story. How I came to salvation. As I told him about growing up in a christian household, he finally said, "So when did you make it your own?"

The moment he said that it was like time froze, I really liked what he said, and it seemed like everything that had happened to me was summed up in that phrase. After a split-second lapse to admire the question I continued to share.

I liked what he said because it encompasses the foundation of Christianity. It was not meant to be between me and my church, or me and another Christian. It is supposed to be God, and His love for me.

Because it is when you "make it your own", that you start taking responsibility for your hunger for God, you take responsibility for knowing the spiritual condition of your own soul, and of others. It is when you begin to solely depend on God and not on man, when the opinion of God matters more than the opinion of man. When you "make it your own", beloved, that is when you walk in faith, love, and hope. Under the shadow of His wings, in the peace that is beyond understanding, in the joy that is full, and in His arms of love.

The condition of my soul was no longer dependent on the condition of my church, or my pastor, or the people around me, or the conferences I went to. The condition of my soul became dependent on how much time was spent in His throne room; the secret place. To the degree I was chastened by the Holy Spirit was also the degree of the prosperity of my soul. No longer influenced by how 'on fire' my youthgroup was, but the fact that I burned because the passion of Christ was born in me.

It is the secret joy in knowing the love of the Father, and that He. Is. Good. All. the. time.

Make it your own if you have not. Make it your own for the sake of those who haven't. Make it your own because the Father wants you to. Make it your own because you don't know what you have, or what you have access to until you do.

-brandon.

Crackdown 3

Ha, off the last post. This is how my mind works.

Recognizing the wave of possibility:
-if pray for breakthrough and continual intercession for this 1 person, God will transform their life sometime or another
-because of the sheer power of daily, focused prayer, this person's transformation be radical in any sense, they WILL be sold out to God, more-so than me
-because of the transformation, this person will effect everyone around them, bring many to Christ, teaching deliverance, one who walks in the power of God, and one who has been humbled by His love and mercy
-because of my choice to intercede for this person, I have directly influenced the kingdom, I have been an agent through which heaven could come down on earth and invade this 1 person's life
-because of the fruit of my choice, I now have a testimony of God's power and glory, and every time i share it, it reminds me of His greatness and it stirs my heart and spurs me to do it again on a larger scale, interceding for more people
-because of the sharing of this testimony, I am filled with joy again just making known the works of God, and the people who hear are encouraged, stirred in their hearts, and may even do the same thing
-because of how God has moved in 1 simple choice, there seems to be a cycle where it all starts over again with more people

Riding the wave of possibility
-Me and Sam are actually doing a 'holy experiment' like this and we're starting to see some of the fruits.. but mang i can already feel it coming.

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So the funny thing is, I'm thinking about all the people that have been moved the same way because they heard similar testimonies I've heard, and now they are moved just as I am (or even more so) to pick someone out and intercede for them until they see a radical change.

"The kingdom of God is like a box of chocolates, any way you pick, iss reel good." - God just downloaded that =D

dang.. i didn't even touch the notes to myself...

-brandon.

and again, typing this I am stirred again to pray even harder for my friend for his breakthrough.

Crackdown 2

note to self:
-thanksgiving
-make it your own
-elementaries
-prayer

Responsibility

Going off from the last post.. about sharing. I remember realizing that this was the call to our 'fellowshipping' with the body, that our fellowship should result in a mutual blessing, as we share testimonies or what God is teaching us (hence, a GOD-centered fellowship), then as a result, everyone who hears and the one speaking is blessed. This is why we rejoice together as one body, why we mourn as one body and receive healing as one body. Going back to the point... our call as a body in fellowship is to sharpen each other and build each other up, and when you have the typical kind of 'fellowship' you see in so many Christian clubs and youth groups you end up with frustrated and empty Christ-followers. This first frustrated me a few years ago, and now I realize that it's very difficult to see fruitful fellowship in any gathering of believers if none have fellowshipped with the Living God. If we are born again in the spirit, then there is no fruit in fellowshipping by the flesh. If we are born again in the spirit we must be walking in the spirit, led by the spirit, and in this case, fellowship in the spirit. How can we expect to fulfill God's call to fellowship when we have not first fulfilled the call of the cross?

The reason why I enjoy going to Freedom rather than my 'home' church is because I know that the people at freedom seek God. You can see the supernatural peace of God --that rests on those who cast their worries on Him and who enter His gates with thanksgiving-- resting in their lives by the way they speak and by their joy. The love of God has encountered each of them in a way that it overflows and it becomes the joy of the Lord that is their strength. Every single time I open the door and step inside, I literally feel the peace of God in that room... may it be like that everywhere I go.

So what does this have to do with responsibility? Everything. When you realize everyone on this planet is here for 'such a time as this', then you will start taking responsibility. It's realizing that everyone in the world is so connected to the effect of 'six-degrees-of-separation'. It's realizing that one blessing can be multiplied. It's realizing that the loaves of bread and the two fish that little boy gave(the blessing), by the power of God can be multiplied into food enough to feed 5000+ (more blessings), including the boy himself. <-- (yea see that part about the loaves, God just showed me a truth about the parable of the feeding of the 5000. ZOMG.) See, all the little boy did was share, when God invades the equation, anything can happen. "God can win with any hand. Even if it's a pair of twos" -Bill Johnson. Here, I'll illustrate the little boy's loaves in another way.

Quoc is my old pastor. Keep that in mind. I don't know the extent of what my sharing has done, but i know people have been blessed because of what God has done in my life. Starting small. If I had never been to the retreat where Quoc spoke and first convicted me of my lukewarmness, none of those people God has touched through me, would have been touched. Now Quoc. He's spoken at so many retreats and places, the number of people touched by God because of him.. is countless. If he had never attended freedom, taught by pastor Hoa or had never been blessed by his church, then he would not have effected all those people including me. Now Freedom. Freedom is now an international network of 20+ churches in i think... 3 or 4 nations. If Pastor Hoa never got saved, answered God's call, took up the pastoring position there, followed God's plan, the church would not be where it is today, Quoc would not be the way he is today, nor would I, nor would any of the people God has touched through them. I am 100% sure the list goes further than just Pastor Hoa, but that was just 3 links, you already see the massive fruit just from Pastor Hoa's obedience and diligence from the moment he got saved, to this moment as a pastor, father, and most of all a lover of God. His decision for Christ has indirectly impacted countless people, more than I can try to imagine. Back to responsibility.

God has placed every believer where they are for a reason. The people that only you know, the people you hang out with that no one else does, the people you work with, the people that you see that I don't see. You were meant to minister to their life in a certain way. We must realize that how much we pray directly impacts the lives of the people we pray for, and in return, people may bless us back (like a testimony, or they start praying for you) as a result of our prayers. When I think about this, I realize that in any spiritual lack in my life, there is an element of my own failure, to pray for my own heart or to build someone else up. If there is no one at my school for me to fellowship with, it is because I have not interceded for someone's heart to be reconciled to God, or I have not asked God and sought for one who believes. If I am struggling with temptation, it is because I have not followed the word of God and resist temptation, or I have not followed God when He was trying to lead me to still waters and green pastures, or I have not realized my weakness and called a fellow brother to keep me accountable. And because of all my struggle in my own self, I have been disabled, unable to pour out love on an unbelieving friend, to pray for the broken-hearted, to lay hands on the sick, to teach deliverance, and even to worship with a pure heart. As I think about it more and more I realize that my decisions today directly effect other people today, and myself tomorrow. Had I been cultivating a sensitivity to the voice of God instead of spending time on youtube, then I wouldn't be missing as many of God's urgings for me to call an old friend and speak prophetically into their life or give an encouragement or give a word of knowledge. Had I known earlier that all believers in Christ have authority over all principality and powers in this earth including the devil himself and the power of death, then many people would no longer think that crutches and casts are part of a normal healing process.

Ah... just thinking about all this makes me think about the greatness of God's kingdom.

I'm missing so much stuff..

-brandon.

Crackdown 1

So God's been opening my eyes a lot lately.

I've been reading a lot of books like The Release of the Spirit by Watchman Nee. That is some crazy stuff... but he affirmed many things I've been thinking about. One of them was along the lines of sowing and reaping. Whenever we fellowship with Christians, God, anyone, as spiritual beings we are no longer called to fellowship with anyone in the flesh. As God is destroying our flesh, we shouldn't in any way live in the flesh, including the fellowship with anyone. Then he says that we discern in the spirit; that there's a reality in finding out someone's spiritual condition just by the way they speak. Like from personal experience, and what I think Quoc first taught, you can know whether someone has sought God's face by the way they pray. Likewise, Nee says even by the way people talk you can discern their spiritual condition, and thus be able to minister accurately to anyone's need as God leads. This really explained why I always feel led to tell people different things when I'm talking to them about the Kingdom, my spirit already senses their condition and adjusts the 'radical-ness' of the message as I continue.

Another interesting thing off of that was that whenever I spoke to people, encouraging, or praying, I would always have a sense of joy and refreshing after I did so. And Nee pointed it out exactly that, whenever we talk about the Kingdom to anyone, there's a mutual blessing, they are receiving revelation from God and I'm reminded and stirred yet again as if the word was fresh like the first time I received it. Then this leads to the reason why we are called to fellowship with believers. Why Viv enjoys our fellowship, why I keep meeting up with and speaking, why I keep sending emails, and why I'm trying to start this blog. The reason is because I am stirred again by the words that I say, and that it's like meditating on a word God has given, your mind is again focused on it and as you meditate on it, it allows the Spirit to move and usually, more revelation =D. And now I'm remembering that time Quoc told us to take notes because often we find us writing and when we see what we write, it serves as another way for the Spirit to get the most out of the words spoken. So many times I've taken notes and then my mind wanders because of the truths from other verses start popping into my head and then God reveals another truth about His Kingdom. In my opinion, that's the mark of a good preacher; one who realizes that the word he is speaking first came from God, and as he preaches, he himself is stirred again and remembers the joy and refreshment that he received when God first revealed it to him... and then he says, "I'm about to preach myself happy" (billjohnson) or "That's good preaching!" (bennyperez) or "this is a good word!!" (pastorhoa) or "can somebody say amen??" (mostpreachers).

yea i'm cracking down and writing down the things i've learned lately. more later.

-brandon.