I am breakthrough for someone else.
I can't stop waiting for someone else to get breakthrough. It's a race against time, not a pride thing. Whoever brings the breakthrough will be breakthrough for everyone else.
It's time for the bold to arise, the passion to set others aflame.
It's time to in the fullness of our calling. Regardless of how much we know or don't know, we must use what we have, and count Him able, and count Him faithful.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Shower Blog 2
I choose to honor people in all circumstances, whoever it is, because I am an honorable person. (http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1303896677932)
I choose to make myself available, both to people and to God. Many people operate in the prophetic, and have an have powerful anointings to heal, and many other spiritual gifts, but they often limit it to the church. I make myself available to God everywhere I am, everywhere I go. To love, to speak, to stand, to declare, to save, to heal, and to deliver.
I choose to make myself available, both to people and to God. Many people operate in the prophetic, and have an have powerful anointings to heal, and many other spiritual gifts, but they often limit it to the church. I make myself available to God everywhere I am, everywhere I go. To love, to speak, to stand, to declare, to save, to heal, and to deliver.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Shower Blog 1
Decisions -
I am making choices. I choose to live a life a risk. Tomorrow i'm going to make myself available to hear the word, to have words of knowledge, words of wisdom and prophetic words for people.
I am going to honor people for what they have
I am going to cultivate a personal history, and seek His presence, and seek His voice, to hear what he is saying in this season. Sunday service needs to be confirmation, it needs to be a compliment, a supplementary to what God has been showing me during the week. I can't afford to wait for a sunday for a good word for life transformation. Life transformation is an everyday deal.
I am choosing to manage my time. I have chosen things to "give up" to "go up". I'm choosing to steward my time better. Free time is primarily soaking, reading, video editing, minimal surfing. I can't afford to waste this time. I am choosing to study well, to not be lazy. Because lazy just means I have to do more work later.
I am going to be a blessing. I have set things in my heart to do for God, so God, I need you to bless me so i can carry out these dreams that you have placed in my life.
I am going to write/type. I want to become breakthrough for others. My personal breakthroughs must (should) become a corporate breakthrough.
I am making choices. I choose to live a life a risk. Tomorrow i'm going to make myself available to hear the word, to have words of knowledge, words of wisdom and prophetic words for people.
I am going to honor people for what they have
I am going to cultivate a personal history, and seek His presence, and seek His voice, to hear what he is saying in this season. Sunday service needs to be confirmation, it needs to be a compliment, a supplementary to what God has been showing me during the week. I can't afford to wait for a sunday for a good word for life transformation. Life transformation is an everyday deal.
I am choosing to manage my time. I have chosen things to "give up" to "go up". I'm choosing to steward my time better. Free time is primarily soaking, reading, video editing, minimal surfing. I can't afford to waste this time. I am choosing to study well, to not be lazy. Because lazy just means I have to do more work later.
I am going to be a blessing. I have set things in my heart to do for God, so God, I need you to bless me so i can carry out these dreams that you have placed in my life.
I am going to write/type. I want to become breakthrough for others. My personal breakthroughs must (should) become a corporate breakthrough.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Thinking out loud
Premature death is wrong. It's an injustice. It's a mockery.
There's a summoning, for the sons of the King to rise in the King's authority, steward life and steward death. We are the answer to many questions, we carry resurrection power in our hands, and we're called to steward it.
I'm not willing to wait for someone to start this wave. I'm going to do it myself. Not being prideful, just saying that the time is now, and I'm not going to tolerate it anymore, regardless of whether people before me or after me will.
There's a summoning, for the sons of the King to rise in the King's authority, steward life and steward death. We are the answer to many questions, we carry resurrection power in our hands, and we're called to steward it.
I'm not willing to wait for someone to start this wave. I'm going to do it myself. Not being prideful, just saying that the time is now, and I'm not going to tolerate it anymore, regardless of whether people before me or after me will.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Fresh Manna
doing a lot of thinking... trying to remember the things that got me to where I am now. Writing it down so i don't forget. Because if I stop doing the things that got me here, I stop myself from going anywhere from here.
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God told the Israelites to take manna, but not to save any or else it would spoil the next day. And whenever they saved anything for the next day, the manna would spoil.
I took it in terms of a personal encounter. Everyday I need to be having an encounter with the presence, with God, with His love. I can't let one encounter sustain me for a whole week, that's not how it's supposed to be. It's just like a conference, or a retreat, we get a "spiritual high" because we're encountering God, worshiping Him and being transformed in his presence. The point is that we keep doing that. A personal history needs to be made, where we're encountering God everyday. The "manna" from a conference or a retreat only lasts so long. We need fresh manna.
People with fresh manna lived. It was their sustenance. People who didn't have fresh manna would die. They had no sustenance. We need fresh manna.
We can't be surviving on yesterday's manna, or [spiritual] parent's manna. We can't be surviving on our pastor's manna or our best friend's manna. Surely, those help, but we need our own fresh manna. Where our relationship with Holy Spirit becomes alive and we are constantly speaking to one another, being aware of each other's presence. Just as Jesus said, "abide in me", and "abide in my love". Just as Jesus said He was the "bread of life". Fresh bread or fresh manna, it doesn't matter, we need to be creating a personal history ...
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God told the Israelites to take manna, but not to save any or else it would spoil the next day. And whenever they saved anything for the next day, the manna would spoil.
I took it in terms of a personal encounter. Everyday I need to be having an encounter with the presence, with God, with His love. I can't let one encounter sustain me for a whole week, that's not how it's supposed to be. It's just like a conference, or a retreat, we get a "spiritual high" because we're encountering God, worshiping Him and being transformed in his presence. The point is that we keep doing that. A personal history needs to be made, where we're encountering God everyday. The "manna" from a conference or a retreat only lasts so long. We need fresh manna.
People with fresh manna lived. It was their sustenance. People who didn't have fresh manna would die. They had no sustenance. We need fresh manna.
We can't be surviving on yesterday's manna, or [spiritual] parent's manna. We can't be surviving on our pastor's manna or our best friend's manna. Surely, those help, but we need our own fresh manna. Where our relationship with Holy Spirit becomes alive and we are constantly speaking to one another, being aware of each other's presence. Just as Jesus said, "abide in me", and "abide in my love". Just as Jesus said He was the "bread of life". Fresh bread or fresh manna, it doesn't matter, we need to be creating a personal history ...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Secret Place
I totally got rocked last night, I was listening to Bill talking about supernatural courage. It amazes me every time that I listen to Bill (even if i've heard it before), I come alive, something burns in me.
But Bill was talking about how we live life. We take risk outside, and we contend for breakthrough in the secret place. And out of that, we take risk outside. Any promises of God that we have been given and are not yet experiencing, they need to be pursued after in the secret place.
I don't know, but something just clicked. A lot of times, we assume the "secret place" is just spending a lot of time in "prayer". And then, a lot of times, we assume "prayer" to be just talking to God. Prayer must be mutual, communication on both ends. That's why Jesus said, "ask and receive", it's because He expected a response whenever He sought His father. As should we, expect a response from God. the secret place is just hanging out with God one on one. You share your heart, your frustration, everything. But it's not just a pouring out of your own heart, because it's also an encounter and growing revelation of His heart, that's why there has to be a response. Otherwise, we're just throwing words up in heaven, never expecting anything to come down.
All our answers are there, Holy Spirit declaring ALL truth to us. How to raise the dead, how to move with the spirit, how to worship in spirit and truth, how to be one with the Father as Jesus was, how to love, how to walk in our destinies, how to know our futures, how to find peace, how to access unlimited joy, how to trust, how to be yourself... but He won't share secrets with people who have a shallow friendship, He's looking for best friends. The deeper the intimacy, the deeper the trust, the deeper the secrets and truths to be revealed.
But Bill was talking about how we live life. We take risk outside, and we contend for breakthrough in the secret place. And out of that, we take risk outside. Any promises of God that we have been given and are not yet experiencing, they need to be pursued after in the secret place.
I don't know, but something just clicked. A lot of times, we assume the "secret place" is just spending a lot of time in "prayer". And then, a lot of times, we assume "prayer" to be just talking to God. Prayer must be mutual, communication on both ends. That's why Jesus said, "ask and receive", it's because He expected a response whenever He sought His father. As should we, expect a response from God. the secret place is just hanging out with God one on one. You share your heart, your frustration, everything. But it's not just a pouring out of your own heart, because it's also an encounter and growing revelation of His heart, that's why there has to be a response. Otherwise, we're just throwing words up in heaven, never expecting anything to come down.
All our answers are there, Holy Spirit declaring ALL truth to us. How to raise the dead, how to move with the spirit, how to worship in spirit and truth, how to be one with the Father as Jesus was, how to love, how to walk in our destinies, how to know our futures, how to find peace, how to access unlimited joy, how to trust, how to be yourself... but He won't share secrets with people who have a shallow friendship, He's looking for best friends. The deeper the intimacy, the deeper the trust, the deeper the secrets and truths to be revealed.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Family
It's interesting. On the verge of this outpouring, I'm finding the demonic realm actually knows what's going on.
I wonder if other people see this... but it seems like the demonic is really trying to take down families (physical) because they resemble something in the spirit realm. Although it is, I don't think in this specific season, that divorce is symbolic of Christ and his bride. I think it has more to do with mothers and fathers, people who are willing to see sons and daughters arise in greatness. People who are sowing into the next generation. There is such a lack of mothers and fathers in the kingdom, and what's happening with physical divorces in our nation seem to reflect that. There has already been a turning by the bride (church), we're seeing passionate lovers of Jesus arise all over the globe... but it's time for mothers and fathers (spiritual) have their ceilings become their sons/daughters floors.
Jesus we ask for a graces to mother and father a coming generation to be released from heaven. The blessing of a father, and the nurturing of a mother is priceless!
God we ask for more! We love warriors, and passionate worshipers, and intercessors and prophets, but we ask for mothers and fathers!
I wonder if other people see this... but it seems like the demonic is really trying to take down families (physical) because they resemble something in the spirit realm. Although it is, I don't think in this specific season, that divorce is symbolic of Christ and his bride. I think it has more to do with mothers and fathers, people who are willing to see sons and daughters arise in greatness. People who are sowing into the next generation. There is such a lack of mothers and fathers in the kingdom, and what's happening with physical divorces in our nation seem to reflect that. There has already been a turning by the bride (church), we're seeing passionate lovers of Jesus arise all over the globe... but it's time for mothers and fathers (spiritual) have their ceilings become their sons/daughters floors.
Jesus we ask for a graces to mother and father a coming generation to be released from heaven. The blessing of a father, and the nurturing of a mother is priceless!
God we ask for more! We love warriors, and passionate worshipers, and intercessors and prophets, but we ask for mothers and fathers!
Faith
For class, the professor asked us to create a working definition for faith in anything, not just religion. This is what our group came up with:
"Faith is belief and confidence in a given present/future situation that is based on a history of trust, in which we cannot prove or give tangible evidence of its absolute outcome."
Honestly, this quote came out of my own history with God. A lot of the other definitions that people had were simply just 'believing' that something is true. But of all people, Christians should know that faith is not blind. Faith sees, faith sees more than blind faith.
Our walks should be cultivated in a deep history with God. I have faith that people will be healed because of the history that God has revealed through the bible, through people i know, and through my own life... I have a faith that when I ask Him to come, He will. Because He always has... there's a history of Him showing up.
"Faith is belief and confidence in a given present/future situation that is based on a history of trust, in which we cannot prove or give tangible evidence of its absolute outcome."
Honestly, this quote came out of my own history with God. A lot of the other definitions that people had were simply just 'believing' that something is true. But of all people, Christians should know that faith is not blind. Faith sees, faith sees more than blind faith.
Our walks should be cultivated in a deep history with God. I have faith that people will be healed because of the history that God has revealed through the bible, through people i know, and through my own life... I have a faith that when I ask Him to come, He will. Because He always has... there's a history of Him showing up.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Rahab
Just read about Rahab for my OT class. The worksheet asked why she was important and why she was so worth mentioning so many times, despite being a woman. When I looked in Hebrews 11 and read about her faith, it finally hit me.
I wrote this on my worksheet:
"She had faith in someone else’s story. She took personal faith in the story of someone else’s victory in God. And for that, she is applauded for her faith."
After I read what I wrote, I took a step back, because I realized the faith that she had. So many people want their own personal experience of God invading their life or something they can see before they are willing to give their life and run hard after God. But here, we find a prostitute, who overhears the stories of the God of Israel, His power, His might, and she took it for herself. She never saw God move in her life, but she had the power of the testimony and decided that she would side with God. As a result, she was grafted into Jesus' lineage (Matt 1).
Rahab had the faith Jesus talked about... something like.. "blessed are those who do not see, but believe".
I'm thinking, I hear all these testimonies about the dead being raised, revival breaking out on the streets, disneyland, the grocery store, walmart, people with crazy giftings, etc, yet I've never had that breakthrough for myself. It's time we had "great faith", which is another name for 'simple' faith.
More Jesus!
I wrote this on my worksheet:
"She had faith in someone else’s story. She took personal faith in the story of someone else’s victory in God. And for that, she is applauded for her faith."
After I read what I wrote, I took a step back, because I realized the faith that she had. So many people want their own personal experience of God invading their life or something they can see before they are willing to give their life and run hard after God. But here, we find a prostitute, who overhears the stories of the God of Israel, His power, His might, and she took it for herself. She never saw God move in her life, but she had the power of the testimony and decided that she would side with God. As a result, she was grafted into Jesus' lineage (Matt 1).
Rahab had the faith Jesus talked about... something like.. "blessed are those who do not see, but believe".
I'm thinking, I hear all these testimonies about the dead being raised, revival breaking out on the streets, disneyland, the grocery store, walmart, people with crazy giftings, etc, yet I've never had that breakthrough for myself. It's time we had "great faith", which is another name for 'simple' faith.
More Jesus!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Heaven is Here
Heaven is Here - Justin Byrne
lyrics
Verse:
We won't stop crying out to Him
Cause He hears us every time
Yeah He hears us every time
We won't stop pouring out our love to Him
Cause He loves us every time
Cause He loves us every time
Chorus:
Wake up to normal life
You can do whatever you want to
Shake up eternal sight
cause we want you
Verse:
we won't stop going after Him
cause He meets us every time
Yeah He meets us every time
We won't stop living only for Him
cause He's faithful every time
cause He's faithful every time
Bridge:
Heaven is here now
He's all around us
Heaven is Jesus
It's the moment we meet
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Watching Bethel's Women conference! Worship is seriously the main course, and Bethel knows how to serve it well!
lyrics
Verse:
We won't stop crying out to Him
Cause He hears us every time
Yeah He hears us every time
We won't stop pouring out our love to Him
Cause He loves us every time
Cause He loves us every time
Chorus:
Wake up to normal life
You can do whatever you want to
Shake up eternal sight
cause we want you
Verse:
we won't stop going after Him
cause He meets us every time
Yeah He meets us every time
We won't stop living only for Him
cause He's faithful every time
cause He's faithful every time
Bridge:
Heaven is here now
He's all around us
Heaven is Jesus
It's the moment we meet
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Watching Bethel's Women conference! Worship is seriously the main course, and Bethel knows how to serve it well!
Monday, August 17, 2009
It is Decided
Something rises in you when you first hear the news that your parents have decided to get a divorce. Something rises in you when your mom walks into your room, just looks at you and then just starts crying, apologizing and apologizing... "you don't have a dad"
My mom kept saying, "the relationship is dead" "it's dead". And all I can think about is "let's raise the dead". The power of the Holy Spirit is upon me, so that I can raise the dead. I know it, but I don't know if I believe it, or if I dare to believe it.
There's a passion in me that wants to explode, for the sake of the hurting people, for the sake of those suffering, I think it's a glimpse of the compassion that Jesus had for the people when He saw them. The unmistakable brokenness that people are in makes me say GOD MORE, I MUST HAVE MORE OF YOU, I MUST HAVE MORE. MORE. MORE. Because where I am at is not enough. This needs to be real. This has to become real. This has to become a reality in my life. It has nothing to do with an image. It has to do with a love that gives and keeps giving. This love is not satisfied if it does not give. I must BELIEVE who I am. Who is IN me. I MUST DARE TO BELIEVE THE BIBLE. Dare to believe its truth, dare to encounter LOVE. Dare to scour through the Word to discover who I am, what I carry, what I can give, and what is available.
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So now. I turn the page. I dare to believe. I dare to believe who He says I am. I dare to look into the face of Furious Love, and be captivated, and be changed, and be transformed, I dare to believe who I am. I dare to have faith.
When His face is all I see, when I stare into the eyes of Love, I cannot but help to see into His heart and allow it to echo into mine. I can't help but be more like Jesus, I can't help but be free. I can't help but raise the dead. I can't help but love to love.
I will run, I will run this race
And I will do it all for love
Your love compels me forward
Your love controls my heart
And I just can't, I can not get away
So I will fight, this good fight of faith
And I will do it all for love
You are my great reward
your so worth fighting for
And I cant wait to see your face
My mom kept saying, "the relationship is dead" "it's dead". And all I can think about is "let's raise the dead". The power of the Holy Spirit is upon me, so that I can raise the dead. I know it, but I don't know if I believe it, or if I dare to believe it.
There's a passion in me that wants to explode, for the sake of the hurting people, for the sake of those suffering, I think it's a glimpse of the compassion that Jesus had for the people when He saw them. The unmistakable brokenness that people are in makes me say GOD MORE, I MUST HAVE MORE OF YOU, I MUST HAVE MORE. MORE. MORE. Because where I am at is not enough. This needs to be real. This has to become real. This has to become a reality in my life. It has nothing to do with an image. It has to do with a love that gives and keeps giving. This love is not satisfied if it does not give. I must BELIEVE who I am. Who is IN me. I MUST DARE TO BELIEVE THE BIBLE. Dare to believe its truth, dare to encounter LOVE. Dare to scour through the Word to discover who I am, what I carry, what I can give, and what is available.
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So now. I turn the page. I dare to believe. I dare to believe who He says I am. I dare to look into the face of Furious Love, and be captivated, and be changed, and be transformed, I dare to believe who I am. I dare to have faith.
When His face is all I see, when I stare into the eyes of Love, I cannot but help to see into His heart and allow it to echo into mine. I can't help but be more like Jesus, I can't help but be free. I can't help but raise the dead. I can't help but love to love.
I will run, I will run this race
And I will do it all for love
Your love compels me forward
Your love controls my heart
And I just can't, I can not get away
So I will fight, this good fight of faith
And I will do it all for love
You are my great reward
your so worth fighting for
And I cant wait to see your face
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Bondage
I've been learning a bit about bondage/freedom lately.
The first time it hit me was when i was watching a revival chat with Steve DeSilva. I asked, "Where's the line between giving generously and being in debt?" And he simply answered, "It just depends on how much bondage you want to be in".
Bondage is something that restricts your freedom, in this case, my ability to give.
God's been opening my eyes to see other places of bondage in my own life. I used to play games a lot, like 4+ hours a day. I quit for a while, and then a few nights ago, i downloaded a game to try it out. I knew what i was walking into, i'd seen myself do it before. But anyway, i played it for like 12 hours in a span of 2 days, and then I came to myself, and then i deleted it. I realized the bondage I put myself in, and i had to be quick to cut it.
It bound my time, and i wanted out. Another lighter one, but bondage nonetheless... My videos. I was spending a lot of time on them and i kept checking back again and again just to see if anyone had commented/watched it. I was spending hours just looking at statistics doing really tedious stuff that was/is very unnecessary. I realized this morning, and I cut it off. I already feel more free just declaring it and establishing that.
Bondage is almost like addiction... but thank Jesus for breaking chains! woot! I feel amazing!
The first time it hit me was when i was watching a revival chat with Steve DeSilva. I asked, "Where's the line between giving generously and being in debt?" And he simply answered, "It just depends on how much bondage you want to be in".
Bondage is something that restricts your freedom, in this case, my ability to give.
God's been opening my eyes to see other places of bondage in my own life. I used to play games a lot, like 4+ hours a day. I quit for a while, and then a few nights ago, i downloaded a game to try it out. I knew what i was walking into, i'd seen myself do it before. But anyway, i played it for like 12 hours in a span of 2 days, and then I came to myself, and then i deleted it. I realized the bondage I put myself in, and i had to be quick to cut it.
It bound my time, and i wanted out. Another lighter one, but bondage nonetheless... My videos. I was spending a lot of time on them and i kept checking back again and again just to see if anyone had commented/watched it. I was spending hours just looking at statistics doing really tedious stuff that was/is very unnecessary. I realized this morning, and I cut it off. I already feel more free just declaring it and establishing that.
Bondage is almost like addiction... but thank Jesus for breaking chains! woot! I feel amazing!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
baayf #2
yesterday was day 2...
morning prayer was pretty awesome. I felt like God was telling me to pray for slam (she was outside by herself, the rest of us were at prayer meeting). I just asked her if i could pray for her, and then we ended up talking about camp. We talked about SJCAC, my first night with my campers (the last post), the legacy of baayf (juniorhigh experiences 8 years ago with jaeson)... we shared about what we felt was in store for this year at camp (there's about 350+ people total at camp this year, it was ~300 last year). she ended up praying for me too, and then we headed to breakfast.
i met up with rose/pastor craig. We were sharing about where we might have the prayer room this year, and then we suggested the fireside because there was a legacy there. And then i mentioned what slam told me, and then pastor craig started to share his side of the story with jaeson before the meeting happened. turns out they were praying before-hand, and the yboth felt the glory in the room. To quote "you could cut it with a knife". He told me how the speaker that year was completely conservative and the worship team was more tame, and then near the end, the speaker suggested that they sing a song. And then the moment they started singing, Holy Spirit showed up. Junior Highers randomly started going up to the mic confessing their sins. When the high school meeting ended, they started flocking the junior-high meeting in the fireside.
cool legacy! good thing we're going glory to glory
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that night was pretty awesome too. bunch of kids got saved...
Emily brought the Consumed CD/DVD, the wvcac kids watched it in the fireside room. Mangs that cd is sooooo friggin anointed.
morning prayer was pretty awesome. I felt like God was telling me to pray for slam (she was outside by herself, the rest of us were at prayer meeting). I just asked her if i could pray for her, and then we ended up talking about camp. We talked about SJCAC, my first night with my campers (the last post), the legacy of baayf (juniorhigh experiences 8 years ago with jaeson)... we shared about what we felt was in store for this year at camp (there's about 350+ people total at camp this year, it was ~300 last year). she ended up praying for me too, and then we headed to breakfast.
i met up with rose/pastor craig. We were sharing about where we might have the prayer room this year, and then we suggested the fireside because there was a legacy there. And then i mentioned what slam told me, and then pastor craig started to share his side of the story with jaeson before the meeting happened. turns out they were praying before-hand, and the yboth felt the glory in the room. To quote "you could cut it with a knife". He told me how the speaker that year was completely conservative and the worship team was more tame, and then near the end, the speaker suggested that they sing a song. And then the moment they started singing, Holy Spirit showed up. Junior Highers randomly started going up to the mic confessing their sins. When the high school meeting ended, they started flocking the junior-high meeting in the fireside.
cool legacy! good thing we're going glory to glory
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that night was pretty awesome too. bunch of kids got saved...
Emily brought the Consumed CD/DVD, the wvcac kids watched it in the fireside room. Mangs that cd is sooooo friggin anointed.
blog from monday.
8/3/09
last night was the first night of baayf.
when we got there, i rallied some people together to start a pryaer walk around the camp. we were bout ot get the girls in (em, joan, sam). when we got there, they said we should pray for a girl that came with crutches and messed up her ankle. we ended up sharing the disneyland testimony with her and laid hands on her, and she said there was some improvement. we left early because we wnated to go on with the prayer walk. we ended up splitting up, just me/sam/ben and we started prophecying over the cabin just to release what God had in store for camp this year.
prayer walking the camp was hilariously fun, we found joy in discovering God's plans and destinies over each cabin, soaking each door with the presence, so that people would come 'under the influence' of the Spirit as they would walk in their doors. Each cabin had something new in store... each cabin had a strong impression...this year, the girls cabins are going to be the epicenter of this revival..
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this year they're starting something new with the counselors. they have shifts for counselors to pray during the night session, 15 minute chunks to intercede for whatever may be going on during camp.
*God teach me to celebrate other people's victories, help me to see their joy and their breakthrough, and give me the grace to celebrate with them*
after the night session, we had small groups. it was supposed to be a 'get-to-know-you' kind of deal, but i guess Holy Spirit had different plans. I asked each of them what they were looking to get out of camp. And then I ended up sharing my testimony with them, kevin, quoc, jesusculture, todd bentley. and that of course led to showing them the disneyland video. After the disneyland video, I ended up asking them if they wanted more of God, more of Holy Spirit. In short, they ended up saying, "yea we want more of God". So then we just prayed and invited Holy Spirit to come, and after, some of them felt His presence come.
So yea, fun way to kick of baayf. God's got a ton in store for everyone, my cabin, everyone. all the staff/counselors.
Jesus come! Blow the place up hahaa.
last night was the first night of baayf.
when we got there, i rallied some people together to start a pryaer walk around the camp. we were bout ot get the girls in (em, joan, sam). when we got there, they said we should pray for a girl that came with crutches and messed up her ankle. we ended up sharing the disneyland testimony with her and laid hands on her, and she said there was some improvement. we left early because we wnated to go on with the prayer walk. we ended up splitting up, just me/sam/ben and we started prophecying over the cabin just to release what God had in store for camp this year.
prayer walking the camp was hilariously fun, we found joy in discovering God's plans and destinies over each cabin, soaking each door with the presence, so that people would come 'under the influence' of the Spirit as they would walk in their doors. Each cabin had something new in store... each cabin had a strong impression...this year, the girls cabins are going to be the epicenter of this revival..
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this year they're starting something new with the counselors. they have shifts for counselors to pray during the night session, 15 minute chunks to intercede for whatever may be going on during camp.
*God teach me to celebrate other people's victories, help me to see their joy and their breakthrough, and give me the grace to celebrate with them*
after the night session, we had small groups. it was supposed to be a 'get-to-know-you' kind of deal, but i guess Holy Spirit had different plans. I asked each of them what they were looking to get out of camp. And then I ended up sharing my testimony with them, kevin, quoc, jesusculture, todd bentley. and that of course led to showing them the disneyland video. After the disneyland video, I ended up asking them if they wanted more of God, more of Holy Spirit. In short, they ended up saying, "yea we want more of God". So then we just prayed and invited Holy Spirit to come, and after, some of them felt His presence come.
So yea, fun way to kick of baayf. God's got a ton in store for everyone, my cabin, everyone. all the staff/counselors.
Jesus come! Blow the place up hahaa.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Seeing myself grow
it's pretty crazy.
at this point, I can see that i have more than i had just a few weeks ago. I'm thinking back to school of worship, and my cry was to have more. And now, I can see it.
God totally increased revelation in my life, it is normal to get a life-changing revelation... all the time.
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"There is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in." - Leonard Cohen
I just read that off my friend's quotes on FB. They smoke and they know it's bad, but they really want to quit.
A nation can be saved in one day. And a son that is willing to rise up and be himself is all that we need to see people multiplied in the kingdom.
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There is a huge increase of His presence, I just notice it now. I remember Bill talking about worship, how it's really about those times we have to recognize when we need to just stop and worship. I've been having those more and more, where God interjects randomly during the day, and i just stop. and gaze.
More!
listening to ALIVE - Ian McIntosh. Amazing album.
at this point, I can see that i have more than i had just a few weeks ago. I'm thinking back to school of worship, and my cry was to have more. And now, I can see it.
God totally increased revelation in my life, it is normal to get a life-changing revelation... all the time.
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"There is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in." - Leonard Cohen
I just read that off my friend's quotes on FB. They smoke and they know it's bad, but they really want to quit.
A nation can be saved in one day. And a son that is willing to rise up and be himself is all that we need to see people multiplied in the kingdom.
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There is a huge increase of His presence, I just notice it now. I remember Bill talking about worship, how it's really about those times we have to recognize when we need to just stop and worship. I've been having those more and more, where God interjects randomly during the day, and i just stop. and gaze.
More!
listening to ALIVE - Ian McIntosh. Amazing album.
What has been put inside of me...
so i randomly signed up to work at this camp called camp wa-sta-hi (stands for water/stars/hills. It was so random i found it on facebook marketplace. It coincided with JesusCulture, but for some reason, I had a much stronger desire to go to this camp instead. I ended up applying, got an interview, which was totally God too, and then this past week i went to camp.
The people there are amazing, the counselors are fun, and fully involved with this camp madness. Singing songs, doing the skits...They seem like the most normal counselors, like people that I could really relate to.
We got back this afternoon, and i just got back from a "BBQ" with the counselors (about 10 total). They're all really young, from 18 to 27, so i was among the youngest. When i get there, they're all already drinking and just anything you'd expect to see at a college frat party. Their jokes are off the wall.. they're funny, just not the kind of humor i'd actually enjoy. Literally, i was the only one there that was straight up "i don't drink", it was cool, cause there wasn't really a stigma attached to it. I liked how they were completely ok, they had built relationship with me for a week prior, so the fact that i didn't live out the same lifestyle they did, didn't affect our relationship (this is foreign to the western church).
I spent almost a good 4 hours with a bunch of drunks playing booze games, taking shots of tequila and rum with their limes. I didn't really join in, because i think beer tastes like crap.... but it was interesting to watch them. While i was driving home, i recollected on the week. God's really been opening my eyes to see His heart for people. During the week at camp, He told me, "I can't wait to show them how good I Am". I knew that wouldn't happen unless i stewarded the heaven that He had given me. all throughout the week i watched opportunity pass me by and by. There were so many chances for me to invade the impossible, yet my feet stood. I ended up operating covertly, release the presence where i went, making lanyards as gifts of favor on their lives.
I operated covertly, and i can say it was good, but it wasn't best. As i was driving home, I felt His heart for His family. He longs soooo much for them. Even at the bbq, one of the guys does tarot card readings, and when he said, "who wants a tarot reading?" most of them would say me! me! My citizenship in heaven arose in me, and I started thinking, 'dude i could totally blast them away and throttle them towards their destinies with just a prophetic word. Those tarot cards got nothing.' These people are hungry for the supernatural, they want something genuine, they hate the religious, they don't want words, they want to know who they are. Only people who know they are, have the ability to show other people who they are. If you don't know who you are, you have no right to tell people who they are... because you have no understanding of your own identity, how can you point someone elses to theirs?
I've found my identity, the realm of possibility has exploded in me, what have i done to steward it?
In my car, I decided that today, I am no longer the same. I can no longer afford to not be myself. The "myself" that is in me is a monstrous man of God who is as bold as a lion, and walks in earthquaking power. That man hears the voice, that man has all the faith in the world, that man is alive, that man is a lover, that man knows his Father, that man knows Love, and that man receives and gives Love. That man can only be hindered by me. And that man has the power to use me, instead of me using that man. That man has the power of 'me-control' and can let 'myself' be 'myself' without 'me' stopping that man.
I have lost total confidence in 'me', and have moved all of that confidence in who He says I am. Because He is faithful, true. He is full of faith, and He is Truth. He is my Father, and I am His son. I am His, He is mine.
I can't afford to be 'me'. 'Me' can't give the world an encounter with Jesus. Only if I be myself will the light of Christ shine like a lighthouse, piercing miles... through the night clouds of the sea.
Jesus!
The people there are amazing, the counselors are fun, and fully involved with this camp madness. Singing songs, doing the skits...They seem like the most normal counselors, like people that I could really relate to.
We got back this afternoon, and i just got back from a "BBQ" with the counselors (about 10 total). They're all really young, from 18 to 27, so i was among the youngest. When i get there, they're all already drinking and just anything you'd expect to see at a college frat party. Their jokes are off the wall.. they're funny, just not the kind of humor i'd actually enjoy. Literally, i was the only one there that was straight up "i don't drink", it was cool, cause there wasn't really a stigma attached to it. I liked how they were completely ok, they had built relationship with me for a week prior, so the fact that i didn't live out the same lifestyle they did, didn't affect our relationship (this is foreign to the western church).
I spent almost a good 4 hours with a bunch of drunks playing booze games, taking shots of tequila and rum with their limes. I didn't really join in, because i think beer tastes like crap.... but it was interesting to watch them. While i was driving home, i recollected on the week. God's really been opening my eyes to see His heart for people. During the week at camp, He told me, "I can't wait to show them how good I Am". I knew that wouldn't happen unless i stewarded the heaven that He had given me. all throughout the week i watched opportunity pass me by and by. There were so many chances for me to invade the impossible, yet my feet stood. I ended up operating covertly, release the presence where i went, making lanyards as gifts of favor on their lives.
I operated covertly, and i can say it was good, but it wasn't best. As i was driving home, I felt His heart for His family. He longs soooo much for them. Even at the bbq, one of the guys does tarot card readings, and when he said, "who wants a tarot reading?" most of them would say me! me! My citizenship in heaven arose in me, and I started thinking, 'dude i could totally blast them away and throttle them towards their destinies with just a prophetic word. Those tarot cards got nothing.' These people are hungry for the supernatural, they want something genuine, they hate the religious, they don't want words, they want to know who they are. Only people who know they are, have the ability to show other people who they are. If you don't know who you are, you have no right to tell people who they are... because you have no understanding of your own identity, how can you point someone elses to theirs?
I've found my identity, the realm of possibility has exploded in me, what have i done to steward it?
In my car, I decided that today, I am no longer the same. I can no longer afford to not be myself. The "myself" that is in me is a monstrous man of God who is as bold as a lion, and walks in earthquaking power. That man hears the voice, that man has all the faith in the world, that man is alive, that man is a lover, that man knows his Father, that man knows Love, and that man receives and gives Love. That man can only be hindered by me. And that man has the power to use me, instead of me using that man. That man has the power of 'me-control' and can let 'myself' be 'myself' without 'me' stopping that man.
I have lost total confidence in 'me', and have moved all of that confidence in who He says I am. Because He is faithful, true. He is full of faith, and He is Truth. He is my Father, and I am His son. I am His, He is mine.
I can't afford to be 'me'. 'Me' can't give the world an encounter with Jesus. Only if I be myself will the light of Christ shine like a lighthouse, piercing miles... through the night clouds of the sea.
Jesus!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Thoughts
God teach me to sustain my walk. When ever I'm in school or in the future if i get a full time job, i already know that i don't know how to go deep into You during those times.
It's easy to seek You as I have so much time. Holy Spirit teach me to walk with you in those times.
It's easy to seek You as I have so much time. Holy Spirit teach me to walk with you in those times.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Prophecying..
a note:
i'm writing this in hopes someone may read it. although, at the same time, my main purpose is to remind myself of what He's done, and have a record of what He's taught me.
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Just read a chunk on Ultimate Treasure Hunt about the 12 year old.
"... so i figured since i was doing God's work, whatever thought came into my head was head was from God. So, when you asked if I had anything, I just said whatever first came to my mind."
To me, there's a huge revelation... this kid actually had faith. Not to say that the older BSSM students didn't. Someone said along the lines of ... most of your issues in life are trust issues. This 12 year old had a simple and profound trust in the Father, and it led to such great encouragement/fruit. It's an invitation to believe that ...He's THAT good. He's THAT faithful. He really is THAT good. Can you believe it?
Can i believe it? gonna it on this for a while.
Holy Spirit, please remind me about this word more often. It'll change my life!
i'm writing this in hopes someone may read it. although, at the same time, my main purpose is to remind myself of what He's done, and have a record of what He's taught me.
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Just read a chunk on Ultimate Treasure Hunt about the 12 year old.
"... so i figured since i was doing God's work, whatever thought came into my head was head was from God. So, when you asked if I had anything, I just said whatever first came to my mind."
To me, there's a huge revelation... this kid actually had faith. Not to say that the older BSSM students didn't. Someone said along the lines of ... most of your issues in life are trust issues. This 12 year old had a simple and profound trust in the Father, and it led to such great encouragement/fruit. It's an invitation to believe that ...He's THAT good. He's THAT faithful. He really is THAT good. Can you believe it?
Can i believe it? gonna it on this for a while.
Holy Spirit, please remind me about this word more often. It'll change my life!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
What is my true purpose in life?
http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2005/01/how-to-discover-your-life-purpose-in-about-20-minutes/
I figured it out. took me 23 minutes.
What is my true purpose in life?
To live
To die
To jump around
To do nothing
To know people
To watch videos
To entertain myself
To pass time
To eat food
To think of something to do
To change the world to hurt people to make art to make music to judge people to look around to heal people to be free to feel good to hear myself talk to hear other people talk to help others to be different to change the world to be awesome to feel better than yesterday to see god to be god to be the best to be known to make money to have a good job to make money to be successful to eat food to take upsapce to travel to sightsee to give to the poor to hug trees to watch movies to find my purposeto go to bethel to see people get healed to see cancer dissolve to be with God to walk with God to be amazing to to read the word to play games to find joiy to find the woman of my dreams to be able to rest to be able to take a break to know why I am doing this to have all the answers to not be frustrated to constantly know my purpose to know why I am alive to know my direction to constantly know who I am and wha ti stand for to not compromise who I am to live according to who I know I am to change myself for the better to leave behind the things that hinder me from being myself to leave behind the things that keep me from living to leave behind the things that keep me from who I am to become to leave behind the things that distract me from living for a one goal to have a focused burn to burn passionately for one thing to be alive to be filled with hope to be filled with joy to be fully filled to be estatic with praise to see God to encounter him all the time to commune with him all the time to walk with him to know him like enoch to know him like adam to know him like my flesh toknow who he made me to be to know what is store for to know the best for me to know His best for me to know wha ti need to know to walk in who I am to be who I am and no one else to be satisfied with the process to have the peace that surpasses understanding when I don’t understand to be filled and overflowing with the spirit to never hinder the flow of the Spirit through me to walk in the revelations that have bene given to me to be bold to be fearless to have an unshakable unbreakable faith to realize that the spirit realm is more real than the natural to see in the spirit to see what is real to differentiate whwat is real aand what is more real to be able to show other people what I know for the sake of them finding their purpose to not be lost to know where I am and know where I am going to have direction to know where I am stepping next ot have a confidence in Him that I can’t understand to beable to live from heaven toward earth to steward my life and my time as I am called to to be the best I can be all the time to be free to be filled to be on fire to set others on fire to cause people to burn to cause people to find their purpose to show people how to find their purpose to jump into storms and stop them to be a revivalist to be a world changer to be an earthshaker and mountain mover and waterwalker and windcatcher and firebreather and a timestopper spacetraveler to defy gravity to travel faster than light to see sound waves to hear colors to have supernatural hearing to have supernatural senses to hear God to hear Him clearly to be able to discern His voice from my own to be able to follow through with what he says to live with the joy set before me in any circumstance to be blessed and be a blessing to find more than 24 hours in a day to be a friend of god to walk with Jesus to surpass God’s expectations to be alive to not be satisfied with temporary victories/breakthroughs/feelings to live from eternity to live for eternity to walk in eternity to steward eternity to know my authority to wlak in my authority grow in stature and favor with God and man to highly esteem everyone to honor all to love those who don’t deserve it to be loved to know the heart of God to be free to not care what others think to have wisdom beyond Solomon to be a more radical lover than david to have more strength than Samson to do greater things as jesus prophecied to become breakthrough for others to know how much power I have to know what weapons are available to see where I should be to see where I am to see where others should be to move in love to speak in love to correct in love to love myself to love as Christ loved to love all to love God to have a single love to have a focused love to have a great love to have an agape love to above all, love to have love as my standard in everything I do.
I figured it out. took me 23 minutes.
What is my true purpose in life?
To live
To die
To jump around
To do nothing
To know people
To watch videos
To entertain myself
To pass time
To eat food
To think of something to do
To change the world to hurt people to make art to make music to judge people to look around to heal people to be free to feel good to hear myself talk to hear other people talk to help others to be different to change the world to be awesome to feel better than yesterday to see god to be god to be the best to be known to make money to have a good job to make money to be successful to eat food to take upsapce to travel to sightsee to give to the poor to hug trees to watch movies to find my purposeto go to bethel to see people get healed to see cancer dissolve to be with God to walk with God to be amazing to to read the word to play games to find joiy to find the woman of my dreams to be able to rest to be able to take a break to know why I am doing this to have all the answers to not be frustrated to constantly know my purpose to know why I am alive to know my direction to constantly know who I am and wha ti stand for to not compromise who I am to live according to who I know I am to change myself for the better to leave behind the things that hinder me from being myself to leave behind the things that keep me from living to leave behind the things that keep me from who I am to become to leave behind the things that distract me from living for a one goal to have a focused burn to burn passionately for one thing to be alive to be filled with hope to be filled with joy to be fully filled to be estatic with praise to see God to encounter him all the time to commune with him all the time to walk with him to know him like enoch to know him like adam to know him like my flesh toknow who he made me to be to know what is store for to know the best for me to know His best for me to know wha ti need to know to walk in who I am to be who I am and no one else to be satisfied with the process to have the peace that surpasses understanding when I don’t understand to be filled and overflowing with the spirit to never hinder the flow of the Spirit through me to walk in the revelations that have bene given to me to be bold to be fearless to have an unshakable unbreakable faith to realize that the spirit realm is more real than the natural to see in the spirit to see what is real to differentiate whwat is real aand what is more real to be able to show other people what I know for the sake of them finding their purpose to not be lost to know where I am and know where I am going to have direction to know where I am stepping next ot have a confidence in Him that I can’t understand to beable to live from heaven toward earth to steward my life and my time as I am called to to be the best I can be all the time to be free to be filled to be on fire to set others on fire to cause people to burn to cause people to find their purpose to show people how to find their purpose to jump into storms and stop them to be a revivalist to be a world changer to be an earthshaker and mountain mover and waterwalker and windcatcher and firebreather and a timestopper spacetraveler to defy gravity to travel faster than light to see sound waves to hear colors to have supernatural hearing to have supernatural senses to hear God to hear Him clearly to be able to discern His voice from my own to be able to follow through with what he says to live with the joy set before me in any circumstance to be blessed and be a blessing to find more than 24 hours in a day to be a friend of god to walk with Jesus to surpass God’s expectations to be alive to not be satisfied with temporary victories/breakthroughs/feelings to live from eternity to live for eternity to walk in eternity to steward eternity to know my authority to wlak in my authority grow in stature and favor with God and man to highly esteem everyone to honor all to love those who don’t deserve it to be loved to know the heart of God to be free to not care what others think to have wisdom beyond Solomon to be a more radical lover than david to have more strength than Samson to do greater things as jesus prophecied to become breakthrough for others to know how much power I have to know what weapons are available to see where I should be to see where I am to see where others should be to move in love to speak in love to correct in love to love myself to love as Christ loved to love all to love God to have a single love to have a focused love to have a great love to have an agape love to above all, love to have love as my standard in everything I do.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
School of Worship
so. i'll just ramble. cause i'm not really good at organizing my thoughts... hence the point of a blog.
comment on the last post. i've been getting more dreams... you seriously get more and remember them better when you steward them better. Since school of worship i've been getting more, and i've been waking up and typing them out on my beautiful laptop (thanks, Goh). i love this thing. anyhoo, i've had some really interesting dreams like what joseph had. Kris was talking about favor this past month. Joseph had favor with God, but he didn't have favor with people, that's why his parents and brothers were offended. So after i had these dreams i didn't and still haven't told anyone. I don't want people to be offended at what kind of dreams i'm having. I'd rather wait for God to promote me and allow for the favor of man to come in because i have favor with Him.
anyway, so i'm thinking about all this, and then the last day of class, we sang prophetically over each other in voice class. i was recording on my camera everyone singing over each other, and then when someone was about to sing over me, i handed my camera to the guy next to me so he could record. turns out, he didn't record it, but i told him not to worry about it. in the end, he confesses what he did to everyone cause he felt really bad, and then he just gave me prophetic word to make up for it. an then a girl across from me starts giving me word to, and then she says I'm a joseph. and that's it, and it wrecked me...
i think the second sunday we were there was one of the most amazing days ever. we were at firestarters and we got to give words to each other, and it was really encouraging to bless our coach, and it was also good to know that my word was accurate. near the end of the class, i started giving a word to a girl from Tim's table, and she got wacked. after class when we were waiting at hebrews, there was a guy just standing there with his son in a stroller. he had some arthritic condition. i offered to pray for his son, and then gave him a word about a new season of peace and joy. and then he told me his wife's name is joy!
yea way too many things to talk about... sooo many priceless, undescribable moments. i'm glad i captured many of them on video. God give me grace to finish editing them and posting them. need supernatural upload speed!
i think the biggest thing i took from the past month that i'm very intent to walk out is carrying his presence. i was telling jenn this today... but just realizing that I am an open heaven, and that I am the holiest place on this earth (i'm a temple of the HOLY spirit), and that heaven is home. worshiping bigger than the room...
God thank that i have the grace to walk in everything you have called me to walk in.
Thank you that my spirit man receives more than my mind.
Thanks for being an awesome friend. I'd like to hang out more, if you don't mind. You can invade my day anytime, i give you complete freedom to do whatever you want in my life. You can ask me to do anything, cause i want to be in a place where i have purpose and direction and live out my worship.
You're so good...good-er than i can imagine. show me more!
comment on the last post. i've been getting more dreams... you seriously get more and remember them better when you steward them better. Since school of worship i've been getting more, and i've been waking up and typing them out on my beautiful laptop (thanks, Goh). i love this thing. anyhoo, i've had some really interesting dreams like what joseph had. Kris was talking about favor this past month. Joseph had favor with God, but he didn't have favor with people, that's why his parents and brothers were offended. So after i had these dreams i didn't and still haven't told anyone. I don't want people to be offended at what kind of dreams i'm having. I'd rather wait for God to promote me and allow for the favor of man to come in because i have favor with Him.
anyway, so i'm thinking about all this, and then the last day of class, we sang prophetically over each other in voice class. i was recording on my camera everyone singing over each other, and then when someone was about to sing over me, i handed my camera to the guy next to me so he could record. turns out, he didn't record it, but i told him not to worry about it. in the end, he confesses what he did to everyone cause he felt really bad, and then he just gave me prophetic word to make up for it. an then a girl across from me starts giving me word to, and then she says I'm a joseph. and that's it, and it wrecked me...
i think the second sunday we were there was one of the most amazing days ever. we were at firestarters and we got to give words to each other, and it was really encouraging to bless our coach, and it was also good to know that my word was accurate. near the end of the class, i started giving a word to a girl from Tim's table, and she got wacked. after class when we were waiting at hebrews, there was a guy just standing there with his son in a stroller. he had some arthritic condition. i offered to pray for his son, and then gave him a word about a new season of peace and joy. and then he told me his wife's name is joy!
yea way too many things to talk about... sooo many priceless, undescribable moments. i'm glad i captured many of them on video. God give me grace to finish editing them and posting them. need supernatural upload speed!
i think the biggest thing i took from the past month that i'm very intent to walk out is carrying his presence. i was telling jenn this today... but just realizing that I am an open heaven, and that I am the holiest place on this earth (i'm a temple of the HOLY spirit), and that heaven is home. worshiping bigger than the room...
God thank that i have the grace to walk in everything you have called me to walk in.
Thank you that my spirit man receives more than my mind.
Thanks for being an awesome friend. I'd like to hang out more, if you don't mind. You can invade my day anytime, i give you complete freedom to do whatever you want in my life. You can ask me to do anything, cause i want to be in a place where i have purpose and direction and live out my worship.
You're so good...good-er than i can imagine. show me more!
Friday, June 19, 2009
School of Worship day 2
So... i've been telling people lately that I can't "feel" tangibly the presence (like Joe/Alley/Logan kind of deal) Or just manifestations/whatnot. But then today... there was an amazingly powerful experience during worship... the glory just fell, and i could smell cinnamon. In the sermix with Todd Bentley, i remember his describing his encounter with Jesus, and he said he smelled cinnamon. So when i smelled it during worship, i immediately thought, "the king is here" like Kim's spontaneous worship. I just relaxed, enjoyed the presence, and just inhaled the goodness.
I think it was about two/three weeks ago i finally took a break, stepped back and wondered, what am i doing (in worship)? I caught myself, I realized that for a time, i was merely just singing a song.. and meaning it. It's good, but not best. So it was when i stepped back and thought about it, i realized what it was about. It's about the presence. He is here, the King is here. And the fact that this all started a few weeks before school of worship is awesome!
So back today... i smell cinnamon! Brian and Jenn are amazing worship leaders... people who can lead us deep into His presence. There was a point where Jenn said, "there's a cloud of glory in this place", I agreed in my heart, because i knew that this was already a powerful manifestation of His presence already. But i didn't expect what was gonna happen next. I was just in the 'receiving position', and then this weight/force/warmth started to come on my hands. I'm thinking, ooohh this is it, more Jesus! and then all of a sudden this presence comes behind me, all over my back, behind me up to my head. Almost tingly, not the chills in your spine kind of deal, it is hard to describe, but all i can say is that when that presence came, it was totally the fear and awe of the Lord came upon me. I couldn't sing, I could only gaze.
Brian started playing "Here is love" the welsh revival song, and it was just a whole other level...
I'm learning a lot about responding. Everything we learn about in our daily walk (it's a relationship) smoothly translates into a corporate worship-leading setting. It's all about following His voice, and responding to Him.
I said this on day 1, but it's now day 2 moving onto 3, and it's gonna be amazing =D.
.. peace!
I think it was about two/three weeks ago i finally took a break, stepped back and wondered, what am i doing (in worship)? I caught myself, I realized that for a time, i was merely just singing a song.. and meaning it. It's good, but not best. So it was when i stepped back and thought about it, i realized what it was about. It's about the presence. He is here, the King is here. And the fact that this all started a few weeks before school of worship is awesome!
So back today... i smell cinnamon! Brian and Jenn are amazing worship leaders... people who can lead us deep into His presence. There was a point where Jenn said, "there's a cloud of glory in this place", I agreed in my heart, because i knew that this was already a powerful manifestation of His presence already. But i didn't expect what was gonna happen next. I was just in the 'receiving position', and then this weight/force/warmth started to come on my hands. I'm thinking, ooohh this is it, more Jesus! and then all of a sudden this presence comes behind me, all over my back, behind me up to my head. Almost tingly, not the chills in your spine kind of deal, it is hard to describe, but all i can say is that when that presence came, it was totally the fear and awe of the Lord came upon me. I couldn't sing, I could only gaze.
Brian started playing "Here is love" the welsh revival song, and it was just a whole other level...
I'm learning a lot about responding. Everything we learn about in our daily walk (it's a relationship) smoothly translates into a corporate worship-leading setting. It's all about following His voice, and responding to Him.
I said this on day 1, but it's now day 2 moving onto 3, and it's gonna be amazing =D.
.. peace!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
In Redding
So i dream ... the gist is that i was at SJCAC, i was about to leave (it's at night, heading back to my car, far corner away from the sanctuary). I just past the curb, and then Bill says "wait! I have something for you". in short, he gives me some papers, an item i don't know (i know what looks like though), and a book/cd. I say, "it's such an honor", we shake hands and then he leaves.
I knew that what he gave me was something he treasured in his heart, so it really was an honor to receive.. whatever he gave me. Another interesting thing, was that this was after the first of school of worship... AAANnnnd when i wrote down in my journal, i realized it was the last page. transition? new season? i think so.
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i was thinking about what Bill might be thinking about it (just wondering..). and then i perceived that bill was saying "i'm giving this to you". it seems like every he does is out of giving. Giving not so much to man, because it's not about us, bill's just giving to God, then came the phrase, "one given to God, is a blessing to man". Bill is just a giver, but he's not trying to give to man, he just gives himself to God, and it automatically makes him a blessing to man. good word Holy Spirit!
I knew that what he gave me was something he treasured in his heart, so it really was an honor to receive.. whatever he gave me. Another interesting thing, was that this was after the first of school of worship... AAANnnnd when i wrote down in my journal, i realized it was the last page. transition? new season? i think so.
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i was thinking about what Bill might be thinking about it (just wondering..). and then i perceived that bill was saying "i'm giving this to you". it seems like every he does is out of giving. Giving not so much to man, because it's not about us, bill's just giving to God, then came the phrase, "one given to God, is a blessing to man". Bill is just a giver, but he's not trying to give to man, he just gives himself to God, and it automatically makes him a blessing to man. good word Holy Spirit!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Revival Alliance I
It was such an honor to be invited to the leaders meeting before the actual meetings started. To be around such wonderful people, Heidi, Randy, Georgian, Che, and Bill... what an honor!
Georgian talked about sacrificial love. At one point, we need to start believing that it is really Christ in me, the hope of glory, and at the same time, Christ in you, the hope of glory. To release an agape love over our brothers and sisters we need to be able to see the Christ in people; willing to die for them, because they are willing to do the same for us. Heidi touched on this, she said she was willing to die for every one of us in the room, and that screwed me up... There's a dimension of this love that is SOOO radical... I was and am completely willing to give my life for one of the leaders, because they have given so much to me, but my logic couldn't make sense of it when Heidi said that she would be willing to die for me because of the love in her.
Heidi's original vision was to create a net (network) that would be able to support all the fish (harvest, new revivalists) that are going to be coming into the kingdom soon. She said that we should be carrying so much of Him that people would be running to Him, like carrying fresh bread (word) and wine (spirit), people will run to you to be fed.
Che was talking about the Lord's prayer, how we often extend it to deliverance and healing, and said it was about time to bring it to another level. There's no racism, abortion, systemic poverty, or homeless people in heaven; it's time to declare social change in the context of heaven on earth.
Bill talked about the perfect structure of romance and how the fathers in the earlier part of the century failed to pass on vision, anointing, and power to the next generation. Randy talked about how A.A. Allen had a great anointing, but he got scared and nervous when his sons began to succeed and people began to divert their attention to them instead of him. Because of the lack of honor, where powerful people empower each other instead of shutting each other down, the anointing on his life died with him, much like many of the past revivalists in the 1900s.
And then he talked about how honor releases life. Honor your father and mother... and you will have long life. Honor releases LIFE.
That was just the leaders meeting. Gotta chew on some words. I didn't even talk about easter weekend with Georgian, and John Crowder...
God...more! and help me see what I already have!
Georgian talked about sacrificial love. At one point, we need to start believing that it is really Christ in me, the hope of glory, and at the same time, Christ in you, the hope of glory. To release an agape love over our brothers and sisters we need to be able to see the Christ in people; willing to die for them, because they are willing to do the same for us. Heidi touched on this, she said she was willing to die for every one of us in the room, and that screwed me up... There's a dimension of this love that is SOOO radical... I was and am completely willing to give my life for one of the leaders, because they have given so much to me, but my logic couldn't make sense of it when Heidi said that she would be willing to die for me because of the love in her.
Heidi's original vision was to create a net (network) that would be able to support all the fish (harvest, new revivalists) that are going to be coming into the kingdom soon. She said that we should be carrying so much of Him that people would be running to Him, like carrying fresh bread (word) and wine (spirit), people will run to you to be fed.
Che was talking about the Lord's prayer, how we often extend it to deliverance and healing, and said it was about time to bring it to another level. There's no racism, abortion, systemic poverty, or homeless people in heaven; it's time to declare social change in the context of heaven on earth.
Bill talked about the perfect structure of romance and how the fathers in the earlier part of the century failed to pass on vision, anointing, and power to the next generation. Randy talked about how A.A. Allen had a great anointing, but he got scared and nervous when his sons began to succeed and people began to divert their attention to them instead of him. Because of the lack of honor, where powerful people empower each other instead of shutting each other down, the anointing on his life died with him, much like many of the past revivalists in the 1900s.
And then he talked about how honor releases life. Honor your father and mother... and you will have long life. Honor releases LIFE.
That was just the leaders meeting. Gotta chew on some words. I didn't even talk about easter weekend with Georgian, and John Crowder...
God...more! and help me see what I already have!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Miracles are Meant to teach us
"Miracles, are spiritually nutritional. They have nutrients in them that give us the capacity to see differently.
It is ILLEGAL to experience a miracle and see the same way you did previous, because miracles are tutors. They are given to us to teach us to see the unseen world.
They reveal the nature of God, and the nature of His kingdom" - Bill Johnson
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ramblings.
If we see someone with a broken arm/cast get healed, the next time we see someone with a broken arm, we are no longer allowed to think, "that's too bad, they can't use their arm for another 3 months".
The experience with any miracle has the awesome potential to change our paradigms; renew our minds.
When we fail to draw from the grace that is released in a revelation, like Bill says, it only trains us to be more religious. We then have people who would give their lives to defend the fact that God still heals, but have never seen God heal from their own hands, or they don't contending for their own healing.
It is ILLEGAL to experience a miracle and see the same way you did previous, because miracles are tutors. They are given to us to teach us to see the unseen world.
They reveal the nature of God, and the nature of His kingdom" - Bill Johnson
---
ramblings.
If we see someone with a broken arm/cast get healed, the next time we see someone with a broken arm, we are no longer allowed to think, "that's too bad, they can't use their arm for another 3 months".
The experience with any miracle has the awesome potential to change our paradigms; renew our minds.
When we fail to draw from the grace that is released in a revelation, like Bill says, it only trains us to be more religious. We then have people who would give their lives to defend the fact that God still heals, but have never seen God heal from their own hands, or they don't contending for their own healing.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Eat the Meat
I remember hearing this from Kris Valloton.
A lot of times we hear "eat the meat, spit out the bones" but most of the time, we don't. We need to just eat the meat. Even though Kris's context was about judging prophecy, even in teaching, we should still just "eat the meat".
What does that mean? Stop looking at the bones, and how bad the bones are, just eat the meat. If we are listening to 'dry' preaching or maybe even 'incorrect' teaching, we should not be looking at the bones and saying "well i can't eat THOSE, those are bones!". We should always honor those in authority, and you can honor them by "eating the meat", there is always something you can take from it, and when you eat the meat, you are left with bones. Just eat the meat. Don't worry about the bones, cause you won't be able to eat the bones anyway.
No one looks at a chicken, look at the bones to judge whether the meat is good or not. You just eat the meat. When we don't agree with a preacher, we honor so that we can partake in the reward that comes with honoring, and we also receive more blessing as as result if we just "eat the meat" instead of picking the bones and dwelling on them....
A lot of times we hear "eat the meat, spit out the bones" but most of the time, we don't. We need to just eat the meat. Even though Kris's context was about judging prophecy, even in teaching, we should still just "eat the meat".
What does that mean? Stop looking at the bones, and how bad the bones are, just eat the meat. If we are listening to 'dry' preaching or maybe even 'incorrect' teaching, we should not be looking at the bones and saying "well i can't eat THOSE, those are bones!". We should always honor those in authority, and you can honor them by "eating the meat", there is always something you can take from it, and when you eat the meat, you are left with bones. Just eat the meat. Don't worry about the bones, cause you won't be able to eat the bones anyway.
No one looks at a chicken, look at the bones to judge whether the meat is good or not. You just eat the meat. When we don't agree with a preacher, we honor so that we can partake in the reward that comes with honoring, and we also receive more blessing as as result if we just "eat the meat" instead of picking the bones and dwelling on them....
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Unlovable
So a friend told me about how she was loved when she thought she was "unlovable".
I started thinking...
the point of it all is to remove that word from our vocabulary, no one is too far from love, nothing can separate love, love never fails.
'unlovable' is an old man word. In the eyes of God, YOU are always lovable, so we gotta learn to see as He sees.
"I can't afford to have a thought in my head that is not in the heart of God" - Bill Johnson
You are always lovely, always lovable, always loved, always the be-loved.
People are just one encounter away from Jesus. YOU are the answer.
I started thinking...
the point of it all is to remove that word from our vocabulary, no one is too far from love, nothing can separate love, love never fails.
'unlovable' is an old man word. In the eyes of God, YOU are always lovable, so we gotta learn to see as He sees.
"I can't afford to have a thought in my head that is not in the heart of God" - Bill Johnson
You are always lovely, always lovable, always loved, always the be-loved.
People are just one encounter away from Jesus. YOU are the answer.
30 Attributes of Supernatural Pastors
30 Attributes of Supernatural Pastors
by Paul Manwaring
-They hear God.
-They are connected to community.
-They understand times and seasons.
-They pastor FROM Heaven.
-They create a culture of HOPE.
-They see the whole picture.
-They lay down their lives and are sources of life.
-They feed themselves on GOOD news. (addicted to testimonies)
-They know where their help comes from.
-Their hearts are constantly filling and giving.
-They know the word and spirit
-They honor caregivers and Doctors.
-They NEVER give up.
-They respect & honor the sick.
-They don't change their theology to suit circumstances.
-They don't know all of the answers and aren't afraid to say so.
-They know their weaknesses & are vulnerable & transparent.
-They know their destinies. (Who He is; What He came for & Where He is going)
-They worship & know the goodness of God.
-They rejoice. (Can't be a weeper only!)
-They are hungry for more of God. (Hungry, Holy & Humble)
-They understand Justice.
-They have boundaries but NOT walls.
-They are secure in their salvation.
-They are content; not wannabes or grumblers!
-They don't walk alone.
-They have a history of FAITH FULL NESS!
-They are life long students.
-hey honor the other 4 offices of Government. (Apostle, Prophet, Teacher & Evangelists) They make room for them.
-They are true sons!
by Paul Manwaring
-They hear God.
-They are connected to community.
-They understand times and seasons.
-They pastor FROM Heaven.
-They create a culture of HOPE.
-They see the whole picture.
-They lay down their lives and are sources of life.
-They feed themselves on GOOD news. (addicted to testimonies)
-They know where their help comes from.
-Their hearts are constantly filling and giving.
-They know the word and spirit
-They honor caregivers and Doctors.
-They NEVER give up.
-They respect & honor the sick.
-They don't change their theology to suit circumstances.
-They don't know all of the answers and aren't afraid to say so.
-They know their weaknesses & are vulnerable & transparent.
-They know their destinies. (Who He is; What He came for & Where He is going)
-They worship & know the goodness of God.
-They rejoice. (Can't be a weeper only!)
-They are hungry for more of God. (Hungry, Holy & Humble)
-They understand Justice.
-They have boundaries but NOT walls.
-They are secure in their salvation.
-They are content; not wannabes or grumblers!
-They don't walk alone.
-They have a history of FAITH FULL NESS!
-They are life long students.
-hey honor the other 4 offices of Government. (Apostle, Prophet, Teacher & Evangelists) They make room for them.
-They are true sons!
Kim's InterVarsity App.. thing...
John 15:1-8
Define fruit as Jesus is using it.
-you can eat fruit, good or bad
-fruit is meant to hold seed, which are sown to produce more vines/branches/fruit
-He says He is the TRUE vine, which means there are false vines, and that fruitfulness and abundance comes from the foundation of truth (Jesus, truth/way/life)
What is the process of bearing fruit?
-bearing fruiting comes from abiding solely in Him, continually fueled by the King's faith hope and love. When we abide in Him, we find life and growth because He is more than enough, always abundant, never lacking.
-There is no mention of middleground, "he who abides... bears much fruit" Fruit is the effect of the cause of abiding; intimacy.
-The fruit of intimacy is the proof of our time spent with Him; you can't prevent fruit from coming, nor can you fake it.
What is the pruning represent?
http://www.garden.com/ArticleDetail.aspx?id=71 <-- lots of revelation here...
-Represents the working of the Holy Spirit in our life
-renewing our mind from old mentalities to kingdom mentalities, the crucifixion of the dead man, the removal of supports so we strive to grow more areas.
-used to balance the tree if the roots are not growing as fast. That is why when we are ground in Him (the rock/cornerstone/foundation), we can bear much fruit!
Make a list that describes the relationship b/w vine and branches, as they relate to Jesus and us (disciples)
physically connected:
-both have the same substances flowing through them (love, power, authority, peace, joy, hope, faithfulness, righteousness, gentleness, patience, kindness, goodness)
-The vine is always there, it cannot be moved
-The connection is the branch's choice
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1 Tim 3:1-13, 1 Peter 5:2-5
What are the key characteristics that scripture asks for in leader? Why do you think that these are important?
1 Tim:
-husband of 1 wife, blameless, respectable, not given to drunkeness, able to teach, gentle, can't be bought.
-This means they understand the value a covenant, if they know how to honor the highest covenant with someone on earth, it shows they know how to honor their covenant with God. They must be known as one of integrity, someone who stays true to their word, and able to live out their convictions. They must function with a revelation of God's grace and love, sold out and not for sale for the gospel of the Kingdom.
-In addition, they should be able to teach and impart these things so that they can raise up leaders who walk in excellence and eventually surpass them. This is essential to expand the endless boundaries of His Kingdom, and to raise up lovers who understand a covenant relationship, not just workers for a day's pay.
1 Peter:
-shepherd the flock among you, provide oversight out of a willing heart, a living role model, and honor/submit to authorities.
-This means that regardless of your position, there is always a group you can be a shepherd to, where you can provide oversight-- ability to see strategically and give sound wisdom. It is a willing heart because this person must be abiding in Him (john 15) because He is always willing.
-They understand that being faithful where God has called them will lead to an eternal reward. In submission and giving honor to authorities, God will honor you in your desires.
Define fruit as Jesus is using it.
-you can eat fruit, good or bad
-fruit is meant to hold seed, which are sown to produce more vines/branches/fruit
-He says He is the TRUE vine, which means there are false vines, and that fruitfulness and abundance comes from the foundation of truth (Jesus, truth/way/life)
What is the process of bearing fruit?
-bearing fruiting comes from abiding solely in Him, continually fueled by the King's faith hope and love. When we abide in Him, we find life and growth because He is more than enough, always abundant, never lacking.
-There is no mention of middleground, "he who abides... bears much fruit" Fruit is the effect of the cause of abiding; intimacy.
-The fruit of intimacy is the proof of our time spent with Him; you can't prevent fruit from coming, nor can you fake it.
What is the pruning represent?
http://www.garden.com/ArticleDetail.aspx?id=71 <-- lots of revelation here...
-Represents the working of the Holy Spirit in our life
-renewing our mind from old mentalities to kingdom mentalities, the crucifixion of the dead man, the removal of supports so we strive to grow more areas.
-used to balance the tree if the roots are not growing as fast. That is why when we are ground in Him (the rock/cornerstone/foundation), we can bear much fruit!
Make a list that describes the relationship b/w vine and branches, as they relate to Jesus and us (disciples)
physically connected:
-both have the same substances flowing through them (love, power, authority, peace, joy, hope, faithfulness, righteousness, gentleness, patience, kindness, goodness)
-The vine is always there, it cannot be moved
-The connection is the branch's choice
-------------------------------------------------
1 Tim 3:1-13, 1 Peter 5:2-5
What are the key characteristics that scripture asks for in leader? Why do you think that these are important?
1 Tim:
-husband of 1 wife, blameless, respectable, not given to drunkeness, able to teach, gentle, can't be bought.
-This means they understand the value a covenant, if they know how to honor the highest covenant with someone on earth, it shows they know how to honor their covenant with God. They must be known as one of integrity, someone who stays true to their word, and able to live out their convictions. They must function with a revelation of God's grace and love, sold out and not for sale for the gospel of the Kingdom.
-In addition, they should be able to teach and impart these things so that they can raise up leaders who walk in excellence and eventually surpass them. This is essential to expand the endless boundaries of His Kingdom, and to raise up lovers who understand a covenant relationship, not just workers for a day's pay.
1 Peter:
-shepherd the flock among you, provide oversight out of a willing heart, a living role model, and honor/submit to authorities.
-This means that regardless of your position, there is always a group you can be a shepherd to, where you can provide oversight-- ability to see strategically and give sound wisdom. It is a willing heart because this person must be abiding in Him (john 15) because He is always willing.
-They understand that being faithful where God has called them will lead to an eternal reward. In submission and giving honor to authorities, God will honor you in your desires.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Not Good with Titles
So it's been pretty crazy lately.
People been prophesying, feeling, manifesting, words of knowledge, healing... it's gone a loong while.
It's clearer and clearer what God is using me to do in this season. I feel like I'm building, not necessarily houses, but foundations. I remember joe telling me that I was a revival machine, to shock some "sleeping" people and give them a jolt. I guess I see that. Eh, talking about me is boring.
Kim, this woman is soooo.. normal. She has been raising up a company of mighty men and women but was struggling with the limelight. I hope she doesn't read this, but I hope she does, because she is so unbelievably amazing. What she is doing on her campus is what I have dreamed of, to raise up a massive army for God. Holy Spirit keep encouraging her and reminding her how pleased You are with her.
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Identity
I'm beginning to realize more and more that the 'average' (i don't even know what this means anymore) Christian does not know who they are (in Christ). People need to know that we are made in God's image, in His likeness. In Tim's bible, he keeps a piece of prophetic art that his friend gave him that has a picture of a mirror on it. The other side says, "When you look at you in the mirror, you look at me. I love you". It is not to say we are God, we aren't, but it's living knowing that it is Christ in us, the hope of glory. All creation is anticipating the sons of the king to reveal His glory, to contain and release it. We are the light, the glimmer of hope, all creation was MADE for glory, but sin caused us to fall short of it.
To the normal Christian:
You are a child of the King.
You are anointed.
You are called.
You are seated in heavenly places. Now.
You have citizenship in heaven. Now.
You have access to His secrets.
You are His friend.
You are made in His image and likeness.
You are the answer to someone's prophecy and prayer.
You are significant.
You have more power in you than you know.
You have the Holy Spirit who raised Jesus from the dead.
You have ALL authority on heaven and on earth.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
You have access to the storehouses of heaven.
You have no limits.
You have favor with Him.
You have passion.
You have a radical call on your life.
You have the testimonies of the Lord as your inheritance
You are more capable than you think.
You are here to conquer.
You are here to destroy the works of the devil.
You are here to be salt and light.
You are here to love and be-loved by Him.
You are here to influence your surroundings and not be influenced by it.
You are here to walk in who He has called you to be.
You are here to change the world.
You are here to make history.
You are here to make His name great.
You are here to give glory to Him.
You are here to live a life of worship.
You are here to raise spiritual sons and daughters.
You are here to live in power.
You are here to be blessed to be a blessing.
You are here to re-present Christ.
You are here for a reason.
You are here because God didn't make a "plan B".
You are here because God knew exactly where He wanted you.
You are here because God knows you are able.
You are amazing.
There is no one on this earth like you.
There is no one on this earth with your friends, your gifts, your talents, your reach, your anointings, your faith, your character, and your love.
You are you, and God is in you and you are in Him.
You were made to love. You were made for love.
You are madly in love.
You are awesome.
...
So? Go. What are you waiting for? The world is waiting. All creation is longing for the sons of God to be revealed. [Rom 8:19]
People been prophesying, feeling, manifesting, words of knowledge, healing... it's gone a loong while.
It's clearer and clearer what God is using me to do in this season. I feel like I'm building, not necessarily houses, but foundations. I remember joe telling me that I was a revival machine, to shock some "sleeping" people and give them a jolt. I guess I see that. Eh, talking about me is boring.
Kim, this woman is soooo.. normal. She has been raising up a company of mighty men and women but was struggling with the limelight. I hope she doesn't read this, but I hope she does, because she is so unbelievably amazing. What she is doing on her campus is what I have dreamed of, to raise up a massive army for God. Holy Spirit keep encouraging her and reminding her how pleased You are with her.
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Identity
I'm beginning to realize more and more that the 'average' (i don't even know what this means anymore) Christian does not know who they are (in Christ). People need to know that we are made in God's image, in His likeness. In Tim's bible, he keeps a piece of prophetic art that his friend gave him that has a picture of a mirror on it. The other side says, "When you look at you in the mirror, you look at me. I love you". It is not to say we are God, we aren't, but it's living knowing that it is Christ in us, the hope of glory. All creation is anticipating the sons of the king to reveal His glory, to contain and release it. We are the light, the glimmer of hope, all creation was MADE for glory, but sin caused us to fall short of it.
To the normal Christian:
You are a child of the King.
You are anointed.
You are called.
You are seated in heavenly places. Now.
You have citizenship in heaven. Now.
You have access to His secrets.
You are His friend.
You are made in His image and likeness.
You are the answer to someone's prophecy and prayer.
You are significant.
You have more power in you than you know.
You have the Holy Spirit who raised Jesus from the dead.
You have ALL authority on heaven and on earth.
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
You have access to the storehouses of heaven.
You have no limits.
You have favor with Him.
You have passion.
You have a radical call on your life.
You have the testimonies of the Lord as your inheritance
You are more capable than you think.
You are here to conquer.
You are here to destroy the works of the devil.
You are here to be salt and light.
You are here to love and be-loved by Him.
You are here to influence your surroundings and not be influenced by it.
You are here to walk in who He has called you to be.
You are here to change the world.
You are here to make history.
You are here to make His name great.
You are here to give glory to Him.
You are here to live a life of worship.
You are here to raise spiritual sons and daughters.
You are here to live in power.
You are here to be blessed to be a blessing.
You are here to re-present Christ.
You are here for a reason.
You are here because God didn't make a "plan B".
You are here because God knew exactly where He wanted you.
You are here because God knows you are able.
You are amazing.
There is no one on this earth like you.
There is no one on this earth with your friends, your gifts, your talents, your reach, your anointings, your faith, your character, and your love.
You are you, and God is in you and you are in Him.
You were made to love. You were made for love.
You are madly in love.
You are awesome.
...
So? Go. What are you waiting for? The world is waiting. All creation is longing for the sons of God to be revealed. [Rom 8:19]
Friday, February 20, 2009
MMMmm..
Crazy. crazy. crazy.
I've been chewing on what Bill Johnson said/says....
"Any revelation that does not bring us into greater encounter only trains us to be more religious".
I've heard him say it before, but a few weeks ago, i heard it again and then it hit me like ton of bricks. I had to stop listening to the sermon because i was scared to go on. I hate religion. And i immediately realized that from that point, i was bound to every new revelation that God gave me. The point of greater revelation is to lead us into greater encounter and to live with a greater anointing of His spirit. I anything becomes just head knowledge, i am closer to becoming the very thing i don't want to become, religious.
For a while, i was almost scared to listen to another sermon or another new book, i knew I was bound to whatever was opened to my eyes.
I can't say much more, because i still don't have much to say. Another chapter of my life is unfolding now.
oof! biiig stuff. Yay God. =D.
I've been chewing on what Bill Johnson said/says....
"Any revelation that does not bring us into greater encounter only trains us to be more religious".
I've heard him say it before, but a few weeks ago, i heard it again and then it hit me like ton of bricks. I had to stop listening to the sermon because i was scared to go on. I hate religion. And i immediately realized that from that point, i was bound to every new revelation that God gave me. The point of greater revelation is to lead us into greater encounter and to live with a greater anointing of His spirit. I anything becomes just head knowledge, i am closer to becoming the very thing i don't want to become, religious.
For a while, i was almost scared to listen to another sermon or another new book, i knew I was bound to whatever was opened to my eyes.
I can't say much more, because i still don't have much to say. Another chapter of my life is unfolding now.
oof! biiig stuff. Yay God. =D.
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